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[17 Jan 2007|02:46pm] |
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comment here, and i'll tell you one particular thing that i like about you.
then post it yourself and spread the love.
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[24 Dec 2006|09:12pm] |
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it's due time.
i turn 20 on tuesday.
a new girl, a new livejournal.
add me, and i'll surely add you back.
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) maybeitsrapture
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[05 Dec 2006|02:46pm] |
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RIP the crocodile hunter
he died doing something he loved... bothering animals.
i couldn't sleep last night. it's so hard to sleep with someone else in a teeny tiny twin bed.
my room is soo sweet. much bigger than last year, and closer to the bathrooms and the common room, and i'm surrounded by my good friends. they don't mind when i play music, and i dont have a neighbour who hosts crazy loud anime parties late at night. c'est tres bien.
the only thing about being back in the city that makes me nervous is the fact that i think my mom will take it even harder this year. her and my brother had a huge argument right before i left, and it made me sad/happy to leave. i think i'm the family moderator in a lot of respects and when i left last year, my parents nearly got divourced. so i'm worried that things will get worse. hopefully i can pass on some of my peacekeeping skills to my sister and she can take care of things.
the party in the quad last night was tight. at one point, steph and i climbed a tree and drunkingly ranted about boys. and i showed dave how to swingdance. apparently there is another tonight, so i might have to hit that shiat up! haha
i want to see ALL OF YOU this year. that is what i have assessed. i'm thinking i might incapsulate 20 chill sessions into one and throw a party for my 20th. i'm horrible at organizing anything i think i might have a party in my room and then move it to a bar/club in the city. we will see.
okay, see you kids later!
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[24 Oct 2006|09:47pm] |
i got my lip pierced tonight.
i decided to randomly and it looks pretty ok.
the only thing that's really freaking me out right now is how am i ever supposed to kiss someone again?
voila.
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[23 Oct 2006|09:09pm] |
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operation aborted.
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[18 Oct 2006|01:48am] |
oh my god
oh my god
oh my god
ohmy god
my fingers are fuckign shaking
the reason matt broke up with me was to date someone else.
and i called him right now an d asksed him flat out if it was true, and he said 'yes' without a flinch. he lied to me that whoel time. the whole time i thought that maybe there was something there and we'd be back together and that maybe people fall out of love all the time, it was so he could date someone else. when he called two days ago, he was acitn glike he was just sort of seeing her or something, like it was a whole new thing, but all along, while i was begging him to take me back and crying myself to sleep everynight hoping that he'd call and apologize and take our breakup back, and the whole time, there was another girl that he was kissing and holding and falling in lvove with. he didn't even sound sorry on the phone at all, i told him to fuck off and die and i hope that his band would fail and to leave my friends the fuck alone, and he very non chalantly said "yeah, well, they're my friends too."
in paris, he told me this story about a friend of his who had been going out with his girlfriend for a long time, but liked someone else hotter. it was about him, and i even asked him 'is that about us?" and he said no.
he said he wanted to break up because he didn't love me anymore. too bad that was only half the fucking story.
nobody told me
not even my closest friend who knew.
what a fucking asshole. i hope his life is miserable and what's really sad is even though i'm so angry and betrayed by this whole thing is the fact that he has no remorse for anything.
fuck him.
fuck her.
he's worse than sean, and i fucking want to die.
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| one month. |
[26 Sep 2006|01:55pm] |
dear someone,
i've been thinking about you a lot lately, and i wonder how you've been, and how work is going and whether you got that raise from tony. i think about what restaurants you may have been to in the past month, and what you ordered (probably something ridiculously expensive but absolutely delicious, knowing you) and if you still play poker on the weekend at dennis' house, or if you've been staying in more lately and have been writing new songs to play with your brother. maybe you broke edge, and started drinking, and have been to a lot of fun parties and made a lot of new friends that are in your program at george brown, or maybe you have been to brooklin, and if you did, you drove by all our old places-where you held me, or we laughed, or we hung out-and maybe you thought about me, even for a split second, and wondered the same things. i think about what i would be doing right now if we were still together, or if you were still the same person that i fell in love with so long ago. but it seems so silly; because who am i kidding? i'm still in love with you, even after this month apart. i can't help thinking about how brown your eyes are, and how you smell, your favourite songs, the sound of your laugh, where you are. and i keep replaying that time i surprised you on valentines day this year in my mind- how we didn't think we'd see each other, but i secretly took the train into the city, rang up to your apartment, and when that elevator door opened, you were so happy and had tears in your eyes and you kissed me for so long and held me in the hallway and said "my jennifer, what would i do without you?" do you remember? that was only a few months ago.
and even though i now know that i am able to kiss someone else and hold someone else and fall asleep with someone else, i'll always want to call you up the next day and hear your voice and make sure that you're ok. i just can't help it.
i have this sinking feeling that you'll never call, and you threw out all those love letters and pictures that i returned to you the last day i saw you, and you are not even close to being the boy i once knew- but i just thought you should know all of these things, and so that when you are feeling lonely and you're cuddled up with your favourite blanket, at least you will know that there is someone out there with you on their mind.
love,
always and forever,
pie.
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[18 Sep 2006|12:03pm] |
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i've had a really amazing week/weekend.
-i got to see gordon in the flesh and chill at port perry's lakefront.
-siobhan's party was so so good, and i'm so glad i got to meet everyone and hang out with rebecca, and hear dave play music and makeout with siobhan! i mean..i totally didn't make out with siobhan.
-dan came over and we ate licks and watched the hockey game! go oilers.
-i think i'm going to a massive baseball game with some people from brooklin.
sweet vageens. better get going.
cheers kids.
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[13 Sep 2006|12:26pm] |
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songs that sum up these past couple weeks:
1) My Favourite Chords/Weakerthans-abby and i went to check out the Whitby Psych and had to walk through the construction site and we were going to leave notes.
2) Cavanaugh Park/Something Corporate-ode to all the time i've spent in playgrounds/parks these past few days.
3) You Will?../Bright Eyes-always been my favourite bright eyes song, and it seems kind of fitting in some ways.
4) As Lovers Go/Dashboard Confessional- unfortunetly. dave told me to check it out, haha.
5) Swimmers/Broken Social Scene-listening to it a lot lately.
6) Whiner's Bio/Mates of State-i'm driving JL and siobhan crazy with my ramblings.
7) Understanding in a Car Crash/Thursday-refers to my mishap with that cop's car.
8) Save your Scissors/City and Colour-gordon's birthday!
9) Let it Rain/Tilly and the Wall-the sad fact that i missed the show, and what i refer to as "my final push" for secret reasons (sio, you know)
10) Sorry about That/Alkaline Trio-hot violin parties.
-i've also lost 8 pounds since i got back from paris. my mom is kind of freaked out because i look kind of skeletal, but i really didn't mean to lose that weight. regardless, i've been eating a lot of bagels and pasta.
-something fun: my mom is so serious about this trip to ireland i mentioned in a couple years time, that she has invited her entire side of the family to come! i'm really excited, they'll get to see where our family is from!
-been ohmygosh crazy busy even without the job, haha.
by the way, i'm throwing a big hot violin party in a couple weeks at my cottage. i don't know the exact dates yet, but it will have to be during the week. you are all invited, pending you are able to drive up. (the car i'm taking only seats 4 other people) it's for a couple days, or however long you wish to stay. message me and i'll provide you with more details.
i want school to start.
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[09 Sep 2006|12:11am] |
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..so i was just in a car crash.
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[05 Sep 2006|06:37pm] |
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whoa.
so i'm totally broke, but i for sure just booked a trip to ottawa july 8th-9th to go to a sloan show with my cousin, sarah and her friend, scott.
the census job pays so horribly, and i've begun looking for more jobs. on wednesday, i'm going to a job interview which i'm actually really excited about-it's for a company that specializes in windpower and solar energy, and other environmental energy sources. if i get it, i will be very happy, and very set for life as it pays somewhere in the 20 dollars an hour avenue.
so vic and i booked it to toronto this weekend and partied with siobhan and public outreach people after grabbing food @ this place that the waiter from kings cafe suggested. red room? it was very delicious. we ordered beers too, just for fun, even though beer is clearly the worst thing ever invented, haha. sio and psuedo-asian james had to walk us back to the ttc at dupont.
violin is going very nicely, even though i can't figure out why my bow is catching on the strings and making my violin squawk between every note. i'll have to ask munja on saturday. but if all goes well, gwen and i discussed this amazing idea we came up with last week in second cup where we'll start an experimental casual band. she'll play the flute and tap dance and i'll do violin and the piano and most likely sing. we're waiting a few weeks until i use more of my strings (right now i can only play the A and E strings) and then we're going to have a jam session and see what happens.
i'm getting glasses on thursday, all-the-time glasses too, probably. i can't see anything long distance anymore, and it's especially scary when i'm driving and i can't tell what any of the signs say.
i'm back in toronto on friday to see friends and pick up a much needed paycheck and probably check out steve's music for a cheap microphone and some resin, and then i'm going away this whole weekend.
anyways, i'm finished burning my cd which means i'm expected at the pier.
cheers!
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[03 Sep 2006|12:33pm] |
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i can play twinkle twinkle little star on the violin now!
*EDIT: ( hot violin party )
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[16 Aug 2006|12:46pm] |
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hey everyone.
so the past couple of weeks have been quite full of either really good/really bad events.
matt broke up with me, and all of my spare time and spare moments are me thinking about what happened, and what went wrong. he said that he just needs time to think about whether he wants to be with me or be my friend, and overall, it's just super depressing. especially considering the fact that being his friend is just impossible right now, and i am not at all emotionally prepared to watch a "friend" that i'm in love with date other people. but i think he's working on it, and i'm hopeful that things will work out again and we can be together. we were really happy together, so i can't understand why it wouldn't. i'm trying not to be down about it, and i'm trying to give him time and space.
in much better and more pleasant news,
I WENT TO FRANCE.
it was insane. very beautiful. very different.
these are my conclusions/observations:
-everyone smokes, and not only that, but they smoke EVERYWHERE. subway drivers smoke while they are driving, the guy behind the counter at our hostel was always smoking, absolutely everywhere you are guaranteed to find a parisien smoking. i walked by what i thought was a restaurant at one point and i'm almost 98% sure it was a pot bar thing because i saw people tapping bongs in the most classy european way.
-there is pee everywhere. even like rivers of pee flowing down the sides of the streets.
-the streets are very narrow, and comprise of all apartments. i did not see one single house while i was there, just apartment buildings. but not even like north american apartment buildings, but very classy 6 storey, balcony apartments.
-parisiens are SO friendly and helpful. when they see that you are canadian and you make an effort in speaking french, they will help you find where you need to go. we had a couple old french guys come up to us and actually say "where do you need to go? i'll help you."
-the eiffel tower is fucking incredible. i thought it would be overrated, but it turned out to be the coolest structure i've ever been to. and at night, it is all lit up, and they put on a kind of light show with it.
-l'eglise saint sulpice is better than notre dame.
-there are many little carousels in their parks.
-the gardens are beautiful.
-there is a very large population of ducks. we actually saved one from underneath the fountain infront of the louvre late sunday night.
-there are no traffic laws, so speed limits. it would be very easier to commit suicide by jumping infront of a car there because i am almost entirely certain the traffic stops for no one.
-super sketchy red light district with blatant nude pictures and guys asking you if you want to buy a prostitute.
in any case, it was very nice. and flying wasn't as scary as i thought it would be. siobhan definetly helped during my first take off. :)
i got my grades too.
Global Geography C+ (ugh, i think i got the lowest mark in the class)
Theories and Methods of International Studies B+
French B
Thinking and Writing Critically B
Intro to Psychology B+
so a 6.22 GPA, which means i can take Honours Psychology, which is fucking sweet.
i have a job interview tomorrow and i'm off to do laundry and get a much needed hair cut.
bye everyone.
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[13 Aug 2006|11:42pm] |
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i'm in france RIGHT NOW
jealous?
BALLS
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i have never been this sad in my entire life.
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[26 Jul 2006|11:14pm] |
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i want it so badly to be 10 days from now when i'll have all my stuff packed and be totally financially unprepared for this trip and be unable to sleep because my stomach is doing flipflops.
i also want/need a job.
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[06 Jul 2006|07:57pm] |
think it's a bad sign if i'm having a panic attack WHILE i'm studying panic attacks?
i kind of want to go to college. but i don't know what for.
maybe i'll do something really random, like open up my own curling club, or install hot tubs for a living.
man, i need SLEEP.
*EDIT* psych exam was shit.
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[03 Jul 2006|06:43pm] |
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*EDIT*
i dropped international studies.
i am now a psych major only, and i'm going to do the certificate in Law and Social Thought.
Fall Term
MONDAY:
Stats
TUESDAY:
Experimental Psych
WEDNESDAY:
Tutorial for Exp. Psych
Prisoners and Postulents
FRLS 2512
THURSDAY:
Stats tutorial
Abnormal Psychology @ main campus
FRIDAY:
off
Winter Term
MONDAY:
off
TUESDAY:
Intermediate Exp. Psychology
Law and Social Thought
WEDNESDAY:
Tutorial for Exp. Psych
Prisoners and Postulents
FRLS 2515
THURSDAY:
What is Real? Asked the Rabbit. Children's Lit Class @ main campus.
haha, i feel so alone now because everyone i know here is an ILST major.
oh well, i feel so insanely relieved. it's good to get afef and political economy and all that jazz off my shoulders.
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[02 Jul 2006|10:31pm] |
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vivian left for the weekend and/or week?
i should be happy about the significant lack of noise coming from next door.
but she left her window open and now her door is clanging every few seconds.
haha, the F house madness never ends.
i realize i complain wayyy to much in this thing.
btw, download mike ness stuff.
http://www.mike-ness.com
or search mike ness on myspace.
it is matt's brother and his music is incredible.
i will get you a CD if you wish.
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[02 Jul 2006|10:17pm] |
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so this is my plan..
get hired at the LCBO.
if that doesn't work out, i've got a really horrible house painter job at the Beaches in Toronto pretty much lined up. i could live with my aunt during the week and commute out there for horrible work. but it's full time and i'd get to be outside, and i'd get weekends off at least.
fuck man, i wish i could find a job in whitby! this shit is screwed up.
whitby apparently only hires manly men, like landscapers and construction workers. at least, that is all i've found thus far.
i'm still crossing my fingers for the Bilingual Monitor job i applied for on campus.
that would be sweet, but almost crazy to hope for. :(
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[13 Jun 2006|07:29pm] |
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these are the things i'm stressed about right now:
-getting to Paris and realizing i don't have enough money to eat.
-matt not finding an apartment/room, and just having to move back to whitby. he could live with me, but i'm moving out soon myself.
-working way too much again and in part, not getting to go home for another month.
-failing my Kautilya essay.
-taking Stats next year.
-birth control pill refills
-deciding my minor.
-exams ahhhh
-NOT GETTING A SUMMER JOB
bahhhh
however,
i AM majoring in psychology now.
and i did get a 72 on my logic exam.
and i am painting my room (in whitby) a very lovely coffee colour.
i miss everyone.
i think i need to get more out there again and just live on siobhan's/jl's floor like i did a few months ago.
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now a FRIENDS ONLY journal.
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[20 May 2006|08:35am] |
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adofunweols%&$*!!
this global geography class is so easy to skip.
i'm not going this morning, i promise i'll go thursday though.
the reasons why i hate going:
-i get there at ten to, and class won't officially start until about quarter after nine because the teacher just kind of walks around, or everyone is stampeding down there to hand in late stuff.
-i get super frustrated with the movies and the powerpoints. she'll usually show two movies, or a movie + a powerpoint that are not even remotely related in topic. i would prefer a lecture, or a least a discussion on the chapter in the book so i could know why the hell we're learning this stuff. i would rather READ 80 PAGES A WEEK than sit through the class of just movies on shrimp farming, or the chinese that discovered the Americas or her goddamn pictures of her trip to Tibet.
-she passes around the most useless items. one time, we played Show and Tell and she passed around one of those Quartz rocks.
-her handouts are really sketchy. i think she wrote them really late at night or something. example test question: India is ________.
uh.. ? warm? movie-making? over populated?
don't get me wrong. i love the people in that class. i get to sit beside hannah, katy, fatima and close to hanni and his friendly posse. i guess that's another reason why it's so easy to skip, i can always just borrow one of their notes on the movie or handout and i'll get the jist of the class (granted they stayed awake during it.)
i'm back to bed, and then starting my mega-city essay that was technically due today and then Indecision2004 + caf food with the quirky-fashionable-love of my life.
oh by the way, i'm applying for donship next year. i need to start getting involved!! :S and do something leadership oriented. who's doing D-Frosh??
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